Some observations and conversations of the past few weeks:
1) I am a know-it-all. And you probably are too. So often we've a plan for our lives -- a great plan. THE PLAN. But maybe we're off. Maybe I'm off. I think I know what's best for myself, but I don't always. Sometimes I need to cut the rope -- trust that the Lord has something in store for me, even if I can't see it. Why are you putting off a good thing? Why wait? Maybe you're more ready than you think. Maybe I'm more ready than I think. Maybe I think too much.
2) The power of one. And yes, I believe that is an EFY song this year. Yeah yeahhh! It always amazes me how just one small happening can change everything. One hello. One phone call. One chance meeting. One wrong step. One bad word. One right word. One look straight in the eye. One day together. One month apart. Everything changes.
3) The power of many. Goals set in groups go so much farther. Collette and I have set work out goals -- it is so much easier to be healthier, stronger, and more committed when you are working alongside someone equally as committed. I'm sure that carries to so many other life venues. I was talking about this with my home teachers. Here's an example: A clean house. If not all the members of the house are committed to working together to keep it clean, there will be tension. Some people will put work in and get cheesed the others are slacking. The slackers will be annoyed by the nagging cheesed-off-ed-ers. Set a goal as a house. Everyone puts some effort in. More happy faces. Less nasty crap on the counters. Life is good.
4) New leaves make all the difference. Maybe it's fall. I love autumn so much. My mom called the other day and was describing the changes to me, and those bits of my heart back at home throbbed and thudded all the way to Hawaii. I want those golden fields and stacks of hay. I want the crunchy grass and colorful leaves. I want the chilly air, warm sweaters, and cozy scarves. Instead I have blue skies, warm, thick air, and endless salt water. I honestly can't complain. I live in Freaking Hawaii. But, there is just something about the shedding of leaves, the cleansing winter blankets of snow, and the new growth in spring that just gets to me. Collette and I have been setting goals (see #3) and "turning over new leaves" about every week. We are trying to kill off our bad habits and replace them with a shiny, pleasing new leaf. Being better makes me feel better. Please know I'm trying.
5) I hate Relief Society. Why? I don't know. I can come up with reasons and then I end up contradicting myself. I'm the epitome of relief society. WHY?!! And how did I get this way? I bake cookies, I give Valentines to the mail ladies and the cooks, I send homemade Christmas cards, I cut hair, I have a craft box, I wear grandma sweaters, I talk like my grandma, I sew with my grandma, I drive like a grandma, I like to chat with old people, and I'm everyone's mom's best friend. These aren't bad things. But I want to be sincere. And I think I am sincere, and maybe this is why I have a problem with Relief Society -- it just seems so fake to me! The appearance that has to be kept up -- straight lines, cutesy handouts, centerpieces, sugar cookies, overly-excited faces, stories about lost lambs, fellowshipping sisters. I know these all have good intentions, and heck, I love cutesy crap and sugar cookies more than anything. I'm pretty sure I'm over-excited 87 or so percent of the time, and I want to be everybody's friend. But I mean this. Maybe as I work in the Relief Society, I'll see things a little differently. Maybe I'm just being too skeptical to see the sincerity.
6) Actions speak louder than words. Your talk does nothing for me. When it comes to people, I need to see it to believe it. Really, since when did I lose trust in others' honesty and sincerity?
Scratch that. I think I know. But, you know what, NEW LEAF. The past is the past, and all people are different. You're lovely and I love you no matter what.
I'm gonna go make picture frames with Jesus.
1) I am a know-it-all. And you probably are too. So often we've a plan for our lives -- a great plan. THE PLAN. But maybe we're off. Maybe I'm off. I think I know what's best for myself, but I don't always. Sometimes I need to cut the rope -- trust that the Lord has something in store for me, even if I can't see it. Why are you putting off a good thing? Why wait? Maybe you're more ready than you think. Maybe I'm more ready than I think. Maybe I think too much.
2) The power of one. And yes, I believe that is an EFY song this year. Yeah yeahhh! It always amazes me how just one small happening can change everything. One hello. One phone call. One chance meeting. One wrong step. One bad word. One right word. One look straight in the eye. One day together. One month apart. Everything changes.
3) The power of many. Goals set in groups go so much farther. Collette and I have set work out goals -- it is so much easier to be healthier, stronger, and more committed when you are working alongside someone equally as committed. I'm sure that carries to so many other life venues. I was talking about this with my home teachers. Here's an example: A clean house. If not all the members of the house are committed to working together to keep it clean, there will be tension. Some people will put work in and get cheesed the others are slacking. The slackers will be annoyed by the nagging cheesed-off-ed-ers. Set a goal as a house. Everyone puts some effort in. More happy faces. Less nasty crap on the counters. Life is good.
4) New leaves make all the difference. Maybe it's fall. I love autumn so much. My mom called the other day and was describing the changes to me, and those bits of my heart back at home throbbed and thudded all the way to Hawaii. I want those golden fields and stacks of hay. I want the crunchy grass and colorful leaves. I want the chilly air, warm sweaters, and cozy scarves. Instead I have blue skies, warm, thick air, and endless salt water. I honestly can't complain. I live in Freaking Hawaii. But, there is just something about the shedding of leaves, the cleansing winter blankets of snow, and the new growth in spring that just gets to me. Collette and I have been setting goals (see #3) and "turning over new leaves" about every week. We are trying to kill off our bad habits and replace them with a shiny, pleasing new leaf. Being better makes me feel better. Please know I'm trying.
5) I hate Relief Society. Why? I don't know. I can come up with reasons and then I end up contradicting myself. I'm the epitome of relief society. WHY?!! And how did I get this way? I bake cookies, I give Valentines to the mail ladies and the cooks, I send homemade Christmas cards, I cut hair, I have a craft box, I wear grandma sweaters, I talk like my grandma, I sew with my grandma, I drive like a grandma, I like to chat with old people, and I'm everyone's mom's best friend. These aren't bad things. But I want to be sincere. And I think I am sincere, and maybe this is why I have a problem with Relief Society -- it just seems so fake to me! The appearance that has to be kept up -- straight lines, cutesy handouts, centerpieces, sugar cookies, overly-excited faces, stories about lost lambs, fellowshipping sisters. I know these all have good intentions, and heck, I love cutesy crap and sugar cookies more than anything. I'm pretty sure I'm over-excited 87 or so percent of the time, and I want to be everybody's friend. But I mean this. Maybe as I work in the Relief Society, I'll see things a little differently. Maybe I'm just being too skeptical to see the sincerity.
6) Actions speak louder than words. Your talk does nothing for me. When it comes to people, I need to see it to believe it. Really, since when did I lose trust in others' honesty and sincerity?
Scratch that. I think I know. But, you know what, NEW LEAF. The past is the past, and all people are different. You're lovely and I love you no matter what.
I'm gonna go make picture frames with Jesus.
1 comment:
and this is why i love you. THAAAAAAAAAT much!
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