bottle mermaid eyebrow rain

>i finally bought a water bottle.

>i felt like a wild mermaid galloping on the beach at dusk. well, a mermaid on land. i'm not much of a swimmer. but the water spashed refreshing splashes and the wind whipped great whips, and the laughter bubble out here and there, but there were no right sounds for what i was feeling.

>i am relaxing. right now.

>i let my friend paint my face. i didn't really want a mustache. or a giant eyebrow. but the paint just felt so cool and nice on my skin. and gee, i'd sure love if someone let me paint their face on a whim.

>the other day i saw a nice korean girl in the hall. i tutor her from time to time. well, it was my first day back at school, and she saw me and gave me a big wave and hug "Oh! You're back! I missed you! I told them I wanted to work with you and they told me you were gone! So I told them nevermind! I was so sad you were gone! Welcome back!" I hadn't seen her at all this semester and I was happy she even remembered my name, let alone wanted my help.

>I was sick of people saying "I'm sorry about your Grandmother" and looking at me expectantly. What do you want me to say? I'm still trying to figure it out and understand what happened. I'm still trying to actually comprehend that I won't get to speak with my Grandmother for the rest of my life. I don't get to see her the rest of my life. Thanks for your concern, but what else do you want me to do? "Thanks. Yeah, it's tough." And then at church on Sunday, a girl I don't know said the prayer. We've never met and she surely had no clue I went home to hold my Grandmother's hand as she died. "And Heavenly Father, please bless those who have lost loved ones. Comfort them in their time of need." There He goes again, always taking care of me when I am stubborn.

>The rain has been raining for a long time now. I haven't stopped shivering besides the mysterious heat waves that spill into my room just as I want to go to sleep. I love blankets, sweaters, and warm hugs. And I am going to swallow the sun whole when it comes back.

>When we were going through Gram's old photos, my brother-in-law said "Wow, your Grandma looks weird in that picture" when I got to this one: